First of January 2012

I went to church today.
It felt good. Even though I didn't get much of the priest's sermon. And the readers' voices weren't projected well. I'm not sure if they could use a better sound system. Anyway...
I'm just glad to be back to church.
I thanked God for all the blessings even when we aren't a prayerful and religious family. I thanked him for undeserved graces.
I asked that he keeps giving them, in fact, I asked him to not hold back in showering us and all our loved ones.
I also told him that between love and career, career is the 1st priority. I don't mind having both, though.
^______________________^
Happy New Year to Me!

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Earlier, while listening to Christian music, having my shower, preparing for this Sunday's first mass, I was reminded of MR.J.

Like, how bad is that? It's not like my whole CLP and SFC experience was about him! lol. Though, I must admit  he was one of the reasons why i would look forward to it. I must stress that I really enjoyed the talk and sharing that it would've been still a great community and experience even without him. I would've still kept attending without him because I had my friends with me and I genuinely loved being with my group and experiencing God in another level.

But again, he was all I thought about. 

Then I remember one time we were in his office for a meeting, I think we were to rehearse something, and while waiting for the others he was checking his mail, or maybe it was Facebook. He clicked on a friend's pictures. She was a good friend of his and at that time she was in Dubai. So the pictures were of her in Dubai. And suddenly he started sharing about how she and him were good friends and then at one point she confessed that she liked him. What was I supposed to say about that? "Oh yeah? ME TOO!" lol. He then said that the feeling wasn't mutual, that he only saw her as a friend. Uhm, I got it he was telling me ahead to not entertain any delusions. lol. 

Haist, when do I totally get over him?

Google Chrome theme - Sandara Park

i love Dara
my cellphone theme features Dara so it's only natural that my Google Chrome theme is Dara especially since I cannot change my netbook's wallpaper coz im using Windows 7 Starter.

so I made one.. actually this is my 3rd attempt. hehe ^p^  

it's so pretty! i think hehe, anyway, the theme is available for download here.

Dara Fan Rant

Hul. I always feel that we are singled out. 

"I hate Dara fans. They are so annoying."

Why are they so annoyed about us?

Apparently they feel that the other members especially CL and Minzy are underrated and Dara is overrated. OVERRATED? Dara has been dubbed as the weakest link even before debut! How could she be overrated when she never gets credited for being talented? From the first day she was ranked with Yoona, Sohee, Kara, among others - prettiest but least talented members in their group. In their eyes she was simply the face, the mascot of 2NE1. Grrr!

They hate her for getting all the attention, that's what. They hate her for being pretty.

Is that a crime? She happens to be a lot more beautiful than even those considered pretty girls. So of course people are drawn to her. People worship her for it. She inspires her fanboys to write poems and sing songs about her. Some of them are athletes who bring glory to Korea. A lot of them simply look at her poster and find comfort in going through their mandatory military service. So what, people can worship talent, but can't with beauty? They are both God-given, what makes one better than the other. It's not like Dara, as a 2NE1 member, just sat and smiled while the others sang and danced. She worked just as hard, if not more, than the other girls. And to be clear, I'm not saying Dara doesn't have the talent but if people only did love her for her beauty, then why can't they just let them be? 

"It's against YG's policy."

Umm, what is YG's policy again? Is it to not hire pretty people? Wow, they are so smart. All YG is about is believing in people's talent without the need to be pretty by Korea's standard. In the first place, who are you to say it is against this belief when it was YG himself who chose Dara to be a member of 2NE1 when he could've easily discouraged her to be a singer and try acting instead, like he did with Goo Hye Sun, or when he chose CL over Bom to be the leader of 2NE1, knowing fully well that CL is the most capable and responsible among the four? Dara is against YG's policy of talent over beauty? Isn't she not the one acting cute while performing? Isn't she not the one wearing those skimpy short outfits? Isn't she not the one who is always weaing heavy make-up? Isn't she not the one who is always criticized for having plastic surgery? 

Dara is naturally pretty. Make no mistake about that. And when we say that it doesn't mean that we don't find others pretty in our eyes. I, for one, find CL very charismatic and charming, and very pretty, even without make-up. I find Minzy cute and gorgeous. Bom, to be honest, she creeps me out now. But she was so cute and pretty back in 2009 and earlier. If I could tell her one thing, it's to stop whatever it is she's doing to her face. Just stop before it's too late. And to her fans, please don't even try to deny it coz it just ends up being ridiculous and funny everytime u reason out that it's because of her lymph nodes, or whether or not the swelling is before or after the surgery to correct the lymph nodes problem. Nobody gets a surgery to correct a medical condition and ends up having double eyelids, a prominent nose, and sharper jaw. Yes, it is her face and life, and if it makes her happy then let her be, and just accept it. And don't hate on Dara for being naturally pretty! 

And lastly Dara is talented. She doesn't have Bom, CL, and Minzy's powerful voice, that is true, but her voice is not weak (can u even sing her lines in In The Club without yelling and losing your breathing after? Psshh!). Rather, it is soft and soothing, and the only reason she doesn't get that many lines is because her voice is not very suited for YG's kind of songs, esp RnB. It really is more for pop. Thankfully, her voice found its way into UGLY's bridge that people, even non 2NE1 fans, acknowledge that this girl can sing. She can also dance, rap, and act, and OMG THIS GIRL IS TALENTED. LOL.

Please, just stop singling us out. We don't call you out when you praise CL, Bom, or Minzy, as long as you don't raise them up by putting Dara down. Love them freely as u wish, and let us do the same.

UGLY

English Translation

[CL] I'm trying to smile brightly butI don't like itI'm not pretty, I'm not beautifulOh oh oh oh x 2 

[BOM] I'm trying to sing butNo one is listeningI'm not pretty, I'm not beautifulOh oh oh oh x 2 

[DARA] Why am I this uglyWhat must I do for me to be able to smile brightly like you? 

[MINJI] I'm getting angry again, why can't I ever be perfectI simply put the blame on my ugly appearance in this broken mirror 

[BOM] Don't look at me, I hate this feeling right nowI just want to hide away somewhere, I want to escapeThis world is full of lies 

[CL] I think I'm uglyAnd nobody wants to love meJust like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be prettyDon't lie to my face tellin' me I'm pretty
I think I'm uglyAnd nobody wants to love meJust like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be prettyDon't lie to my face cuz I know I'm ugly 

[MINJI] Don't tell me that you can understand me so easilyMy ugly and crooked heart may even come to resent you 

[BOM] Don't force me to talk, I'm not right for youThe cold facade inside that patronizing gaze suffocates me 

[MINJI] Don't come closer, I don't even want your concernI want to leave away to somewhere, I want to shout outThis world is full of lies 

[CL] I think I'm uglyAnd nobody wants to love meJust like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be prettyDon't lie to my face tellin' me I'm pretty
I think I'm uglyAnd nobody wants to love meJust like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be prettyDon't lie to my face cuz I know I'm ugly 

[DARA] All aloneI'm all alone x 2
There is no such thing as warmthThere is no one by my side
All aloneI'm all alone x 2I'm always alone
There's no such thing as warmthNext to my side, there's not even anyone to embrace me 

[CL] I think I'm uglyAnd nobody wants to love meJust like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretyDon't lie to my face tellin' me I'm pretty
I think I'm uglyAnd nobody wants to love meJust like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be prettyDon't lie to my face cuz I know I'm ugly

Translated by GEE @ ygladies.com

HUL! 
As much as I love and enjoy 2NE1, I always turn to Alanis Morisette and Vienna Teng music for the soundtrack of my life.
but OMG... 2NE1 just hit a home run right here.


Wahhh TT TT TT 


I wanna be pretty... 
I wanna be like someone who can brighten up the room whenever she's around...
I don't want to feel pretty just coz im wearing make-up...
I am tired of delusions. When I think of him I want him to be thinking of me too...
I wanna be pretty.